From Kevin Funk…
Every time I sit down and do a blog I feel like there is something major going on in my life. You know what’s ironic about this is that for weeks I felt the same day after day feeling you know you get when you are stuck in a rut. But when it’s my turn to share my blog, God stretches me and gives me clear direction into what I need to say.
As of this moment I’m looking over my left shoulder and see my poor wife laying in a hospital bed at OSF. I’m not looking for a pity party but my goodness, it’s really hard to watch your wife go through a time period of uncontrollable pain like she has today. As a man I can’t help but think what could I possibly do to ease her pain? What’s worse than just standing there and whispering encouraging thoughts into her ear while she’s pounding the bed rails from excruciating pain? Finally…..I.V. Inserted, and pain medication administered. Even as I sit here, I’m not exactly sure what’s going to happen next or what in the world is even causing this much pain.
Psalms 91:1-4 (NLT) Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty. This I declare about the Lord : He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; he is my God, and I trust him. For he will rescue you from every trap and protect you from deadly disease. He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection.
In this life there will always be uncertainties. Trials of many kinds. But as sure as I’m sitting here questioning what will happen next, I know for a fact God already sees and knows the outcome. Matthew 6:27 says…Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? Ummm no. Sometimes I will say I’m “concerned” but I know for me that’s the same thing.
Being married to a woman who wears her emotions on her sleeve is sometimes a little tough because I tend to be stoic or seem to hide my emotions and feelings during difficult and emotional times. I SEEM stoic but in actuality I am completely putting my trust in God alone. Are there times I let doubt creep into my mind? Absolutely. Is there more room for trust? Absolutely.
I want to thank Craig Swanson for his blog post last week. If you hadn’t already please read it. Getting into and immersing ourselves in God’s Word is the number one best action we as Christians can take to further our relationship with Him. There as we find out who He is and why He loves us, we can completely trust Him when tragedy and uncertainty strikes. It will happen…..it’s only a matter of time. John 16:33 says…(Jesus talking) I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” I love that verse! God has already overcome anything we are or will face. I vow to my Heavenly Father that I will give it my all to glorify His name no matter what I’m facing. So as I finish typing this blog I want to end in prayer.
God, you are the Creator of life and the sustainer of all that lives and breaths. A bird cannot fall to the ground without You knowing about it. God, I have know idea what will happen tonight, or tomorrow, or the next day. But you do! I’m so thankful that you are in control and any end result of this hospital stay will go through Your hands before you allow it. Even if things turn out in the exact opposite way I expect them to, I will praise You! I put 100% of my trust into you. God may Your will, not my will, be done. Amen.